I look around and see the way you judge me.
Never will my eyes be as beautiful as you want,
My body won't ever meet up to your curvy standards,
The way I do my hair will never look stunning in your eyes.
I'll never be good enough for you.
The way I see you look at other girls,
Your eyes glistening as bright as the sun shines.
Every inch of your body having such a remarkable glow,
On the back of your neck, your hair stands from excitement.
You'll never be here to notice me for who I am.
It's as if when you look at me,
You stare at what I am and not who I'm to be.
I feel the need to know what I need to do,
Just so I can be noticed by you.
If only you could see how much you mean to me.
Closing in on me are the changes
I think I need to make about myself,
Only so I can meet up to your standards.
I've been told to never change who you are for someone else.
To be noticed by you, I must change who I am.
I'll go back to before I met you,
So I can change who I once was: a nobody.
The new me will never hide behind her glasses,
Have her hair be so dull, and be hidden beneath her enlarged clothes.
It's time for you to notice me, even if it's not me.
After so many days have passed,
Hiding behind this false image, I will have observed
That there was that one guy who always saw me.
This guy liked me for who I was originally: my eyes, my hair, my body.
I shouldn't have cared about what you thought of me.
Past decisions I've made, I wish I could take back.
Being so focused on the boy, I never noticed the Heaven of a guy.
I've been trying so hard to change who I was,
That I've forgotten who I really was,
All thanks to the guy I wasted my time for.
Never again will I hide behind this false image.
Learning that people love me for who I am,
Is something I need to realize, but it's time.
Time to want to be comforted by that boy
Who makes my heart flutter;  not take my heart away to nothing.